First Day, continued

My first thing was.....I was nice.  It's not a lot, but it's something.

What got me started on this whole idea was that last week, my boss answered me (In an email exchange) in a very sarcastic and mean way.  This is fairly common, and always hits a nerve with me.  Usually, all weekend long, I fume and fuss and think up snappy replies to anything she might say when I return to work.  Then I go to work on Monday full of venom just waiting for her to say something.  She is usually quite nice, overly nice, and won't play this game.  She knows she's pissed me off and she treads lightly and sweetly.  I have a lot of trouble being bitchy when people are nice to me, so my anger wears off quickly.

Well, this time, I was prepared with snappy and bitchy replies, but I did not attempt to play.  If she had been bitchy, I would have.  But it went off as usual, and because I wasn't determined to fight, I had a better day.

I think because I now have "75 days" in the back of my mind, I don't have to prove anything.  I am not thinking, "I will not be treated this way, blah blah blah."  Instead, I'm thinking that I can put up with crap for 75 days.  74 now.

I'm hoping tomorrow I can get something extra done.  It's lawn mowing day, so that might be it.  I suspect I'll get more done as the deadline gets closer, I've always been that kind of person.  Maybe tomorrow I'll make a list of things that need done.  That'll help.